Burning this letters.

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I am looking forward to January 2010.
I am excited already about starting a new job with priority number 1 saving as much and working hard.
Goals, check.
Achieving it, time will tell.

It's 645am. :( So late

2007 and 2008 was not a good year for me.
2007 and 2008 suck so much it made me so much stronger.
2007 and 2008 people treated as if I did not exist.
2007 and 2008 people spat on me and walked all over me.
2007 and 2008 I stoop at a level so low I will never be a man again.
2007 and 2008 suck.

And I thank 2007 and 2008.
Thank you for moulding me into the guy I never thought I will be.
Thank you for making me learn to walk away.
Thank you for making me be the strong guy.
Thank you for making me realise that no boy, no girl deserves to walk all over me.
Thank you for making me realise that I have friends who care.
Thank you for the bad memories; that I will always remember that I am not that weak anymore.
Thank you for leaving me alive; Thank God.
Thank you for making me realise that I, knowing if I put my heart and soul into whatever I want, all my dreams will be a reality, and knowing that no one, can pull me down, or hold me back.
Thank you.

I love my family.
I love my girlfriend.
I love my friends.

What is the true act of forgiving someone?

Where to next? Destination beautiful you.

Growing up, falling in love, getting a job, providing for the family, staying true to your significant other, being there for your friends.


Sacrificing your whole life.

Life's all about giving. So who's going to give it back to you?

A brief introduction by me, about me.

I am Tengku Muhammad Alif. I am currently jobless. But playing Left 4 Dead is currently my new job. It doesn't pay well; infact, it doesn't pay at all. If you still consider sitting down at Suntec City Convention Starbucks, or as the partners like to call it SB-SN, as a job, well, it isn't. But they are paying me drinks. I guess I should be able to survive with an ice tall 4 pump hazelnut latte everyday.


I've left this journal abandoned for quite some time. I do not know what to write but I have so many on my mind.


Where should I start?

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I have so many things to say but I just don't know how to say it out of fear.
What is your biggest fear?

Take care of myself. Please.